Two things

[fadagaski]

1. Watching the source material after a loooong time of reading only fanfic is always really eye-opening. As in, yesterday I saw Reboot for the first time in at least a year, and it's incredible the extra subtleties you notice in each performance that only stand out in contrast to fan depiction. Summary: ilu Jim Kirk/Chris Pine.

2. startrekbigbang.

Okay, so I plotted out a fic idea that basically comprises Jim having to defeat and/or defend everyone by himself whilst injured and angsting. Because I own my love of Manpain (even white manpain).

But then I had an idea for where_no_woman's Queergen challenge that didn't fit there, but grew and grew in my head. Kirk gets turned into a girl, but it isn't all sunshine and daisies and sexual exploration. It's fucking awful. Jim, having happily been an omnisexual guy all his life, is suddenly an omnisexual guy in a girl's body, with all the trans angst and trauma that entails.

God. Even writing it down sounds like I'm trivialising it. The whole reason I want to write a 20k+ fic about turned-into-a-girl!Kirk is to explore just how non-trivial it is. This is what my post was about the other day, on my fandom disclaimer and trying not to offend people.

Anyway. Torn between which one to do for startrekbigbang. I know which one would be easier.

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